i found myself, not sleeping at the right time. on friday, i slept at 3+, after smsing him. on sat, i slept at 4am. ytd, slept at 5+. i'm seriously deprived of sleep. no wonder everytime i go to my relatives's house, i'll start yawning and start slping on the couch or sofa. gosh.. i really have no manners.


on sat, went to my dad's side. their house was like.. SUPER HUGE! kept running ard the house. and i kept playing with their guinea pig!! HAHAHAHA!! my cousins introduced me to j-pop. she let me see some videos. i love ayumi hamasaki! her video, "step you" really rocks! and she let me see some of her fave jap singers. she showed me a band foto. i tot it was an all-girls band. the fact is, they were all boys! all of them were wearing skirts. gosh.. and i simply love the face that they pierce their eyebrows, nose and their lips! i wanna pierce my lips too!! HAHAHA! and be gothic! -cheers- and..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST COUSIN KUN HAN! =D


today was my 1 year old cousin's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED AND CUTEST COUSIN SZE XUEN!! =))


going to the movies with some people. i dont even know who's going.. and i sure DONT expect her to go. or else, i'll go to some other place. (:


seriously, joelle reminds of me of me! joelle! he loves you! dont let him go!! xD


my intentions were good.

Weee~came 2 update liaoz... *grinz* ... 2dae hor...my parents bring us out to bukit timah there, den tt time we went 2 eat lunch cuz its afternoon mah...den my mum go order drinks mah, den later gt a old man came 2 giv us...but tt time my mum went awae so my dad doesnt noe tt e old man was goin 2 giv us e drinks, so wen he came, tt told man duno tt we r her family, den my dad sae tt he nv order, so he went awae...den he walk until our front front, den he stared back...den my dad oso stared back, den dey shouted n wanted 2 fight lyk tt, den dey shout shout shout, den alot of ppl turned ard n looked, den i veri veri veri angry mah...so i started 2 cry...haiz...i dun lyk my parents 2 fight...haiz...den i dun feel lyk eatin, so nv eat....den later my mood swings~change 2 happie liao le lor...den my sis go pierce her first earholes(its her first time mah) den she go choose e earrings, den go pierce...but my mum lor, dun let me pierce e second hole...haiz....haha, nvm, i nxt time go pierce myself~ =D den my sis look abit weird wif earrings...hehex...


Haiz...y he until nw havent cum online??Waitin n waitin...waitin 4 u 2 cum online...missin u dae n nite...wanted 2 tell u tt i lyk u, but i dun dare, haiz...

everybody's changing.
even i did notice the change in most of the people i knew.
but 1 thing's for sure!
i sure do love them alot!
PUIFUN! SAMANTHA! JIE(GRACE)!

they're the people that's always there for me. i treat them as my ALIBABA. it's some sort of a clan. =) they are the people whom i can trust, whom i can share my secrets with. unlike some people whom i do not want to mention. incorrigible, terrible, vegetable! AHAHAHAHAHA!! -shakes head- we even sit near each other.

they rock my world! love ya guys loads! XD


i wonder. why do i always laugh at little little things? and i laugh real loud. i always seems to be laughing at every single minute. sometimes, i do laugh even if i fall down. -.-"


i wanna travel through time, making my happiest moments last forever. i love you :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE EVERYONE!


i'm gonna die of happiness sooner or later. he's always falling alsleep when he's smsing. aiyo.. so cute right? ahahaha!! i asked him when was his bday. instead, he replied, " yours is the the 27 of nov right?" GOSH! he knows!!! i wonder how he got hold of the date. pretty suspicious. wahahaha!! and! i know his! i'm a psychic and i can predict the future. (:


that sickening SHE* is seriously asking for trouble. she's like practically seeking attention from EVERYBODY! now, she even wants attention from the art teacher. i dint about it cuz i wasnt taking art. alibaba told me. that art teacher wants to see my sister after school. den SHE, wants to accompany my sister. my sister has no comments on that. and everytime the teacher speaks, she really MUST comment on whatever she says. pretty annoying ain it? and on fri, while we were at the canteen, she came and showed up infront of us. as she can see with her big eyes, the table was practically full alrdy. it was filled wif sam, pf, jie, assafiy, oli and me. the round table can hold like.. 6 people? unless you really squeeze in. we din want to squeeze. den she came and wanted to sit with us. everyone's reaction was like.. "what? are you really sitting here?" god. seriously.. she's the one who doesnt want to hang out with us, and now, everytime she doesnt have anyone to hang out, she'll come and find us. sickening isnt it? please.. that pathetic look.. goodness. i hate attention seekers. tsk tsk tsk..


i've come to a judgement that, in my family, i'm the only who was hardworking and always doing everything for them. my dad always calls me to take things for him. my mum always tells me to do things for her or she will tick me off. and my sister, esp her. shes the lazy one. i'm the obedient one in the family. -pats on back- (:


we've nicknamed each other.
he's ultra boy!
i'm hyper girl!

xD


i love ultra boy! =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE EVE PEOPLE!


GOSH GOSH GOSH! a week have passed SO fast. i wish this week could be the next week. i still rmb i've been very very hyper on monday.. actually, its everyday. TEEHEEHEEEE~ overall.. this whole week ROCKS!!


cant believe i woke up late this morning.. god. sry pf!! sry for laggin you. today is the first day of the year when i woke up late.. tsk tsk tsk. i failed my E. maths test though.. left 1 more mark to pass. haiz.. den mdm chang still ask me, "why your sister can pass yet you cannot?" duh?! SHE COPIED YILIAN'S WORK!! aiyo.. having a retest on thurs. good luck to me! =D


had fnn practical today!! YIPEES! ahahaha! had to cook fried egg noodles. but, i dont see any eggs on the ingredients.. =/ hate having to move ard from our table to the stove at the other far end. kenneth and i had to go a LONG LONG way to joelle and guohao's table. =.=" had to rush and rush. almost burnt my hand.. gosh. after everything.. i immediately went to throw the rubbish in the bin. den, faizal said, everyone! i dont want you all to throw ur rubbish until everyone of you had said greeted me goodbye. i was like.. GOD! i threw it already!! den faizal looked and me and said, "except for joyce! who has already thrown hers." everyone started laughing.. i dont see the reason to laugh.. joined in the laughing though.. HAHAHAHA! practical was WAY WAY WAY "FUNNER" den sec 1 and 2.


went to red table after school. naidu, yilian, sammi, pf, jie, oli, gl and jo was there with me. we started saying riddles and jokes among ourselves. okok! here's one which made them laugh their stomachs out. ahahaha! here goes!

a black man was walking in the desert. he was about to die when the god gave him 3 wishes before he die.
1st wish: he wanted to be white
2nd wish: he wanted to drink LOADS of water.
3rd wish: he wanted to see woman's butt everyday.
then, he died. guess wad he became after he died?
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A TOILET BOWL!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!


we've taken our peer leader's t-shirt!! quite nice. (:


pf, jie and i were hailing a taxi for sammi, den, yilian called me. she told me that he WAS at the bus-stop! walked there. GOSH! he's really there!! GOODNESS.. waved to him. but i think he thought that i was waving to yl. so cute!! ahahahaha!! and.. guess wad? he smsed me!! HAHAHAHA!!! okok. i'm over-reacting again. he said i was shy.. ahahahaha! am i? i guess.. and he told me to talk to him nxt time when i see him again! WEETS! cant wait~ wahahahahaha!! seriously.. i'll really really die of happiness if i went to talk to him or he went to talk to me. i'm gonna scream my lungs out. ahahahaha!


btw.. IN EXACTLY 10 MONTHS..
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!
=DD


think i've written ALOT ALOT ALOT already. stop here for now! ahahaha! happy chinese new year people!!

^______________^


cant wait. cant do nothing. all i can do is just to see your pretty face once again.
i miss you alot..

3 days in a row! =D


E. maths test so much much much more easier than the common test. sweet~ i failed my fnn test! shucks..


SAM TOOK MY FNN HMWK HOME! god..

SAMMI! if you're reading this right now.. rmb to bring my mindmap to school tmr!! or.. put my mindmap in ur bag NOW!! i'll be skinned alive by faizal if its not handed up to him by tmr.

thanks loads! =)


i was walking wif alibaba to mac. he was infront of me! HE SMILED AT ME! WHEE! den. went to fnn remedial wif jamiatul. walked.. almost reaching the gate. he was somehow somewhat behind me. i turned ard when i was in the school. he said hi to me! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! he's so cute! and he told me he read my every post. die~ i wonder if he knows that i like him. =/


looking at your picture..

gosh.. i cant believe he read all my posts!! goodness.

and! he even remembered my url! wheee~ ahahaha!
i'm turning in.

cya!

:D

one of them told me he said he doesnt know me. then another she told me that he doesnt know me. seriously, i have no idea wads going on.


went upstairs after recess. found out that he was walking INFRONT of me. gosh.. suddenly. he and his friend stopped walking. they turned back. he saw me. he said, "HI!" and waved. OH MY GOSH! my heart like stopped beating. i could have died on the spot.. hahaha! waved back. and smiled! ROFL!


i'm real confused.. does he know that i'm joyce? dilemma! haiyo..


i think she doesnt like the idea of i liking him. i'm guessing that she must have liked him too.


i hate fnn's theory!! i'm practically yawning through the whole lesson.. luckily i was sitting in the back. i want practical!! having fnn on friday! plus practical! YAYS! =D


i'll give, all the love in the world. =)

i'm guessing everyone knows who's R. yep! i'm cheery this past 2 days! YIPEE~


monday..
he went into 3/6!! and! i hid behind shakila. too paiseh le.. LOL. den! after common test.. i went outside to take my books back in the class. i looked to my left, -screams- he was looking at me! plus! he was smiling.. HAHAHAHA!! i think i smiled back too. my happy day~ =)


today!
had cca. now i know.. so many people hate "mei nu". tsk tsk.. shes NOT going to be the CL! hahahaha! even chengyi disagrees that shes a good person. den! i was at the slope there. i looked at the gate.. i saw him! den shiping shouted, "QY!" den he turned. i waved to him. he waved back! i sceamed. ROFL! at the canteen. i was throwing something. he walked past me. i said, "HELLO!!" and smiled at him. his reply. "HI!" smiled back at me too! GOSH!


I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! =D


so toot! so cute! yuan yuan is soo kuku! =)

this is a message to my friend. lets call her, R.


R:
we were very close together with the rest of the ane's during our secondary 2 lives dont we? i mean.. we did get into the same sec 3 class. and we are like.. drifting apart.. you told me that we will go home together with the ane's. i did wait for you after school. but you, you left without telling me a word. i went with the ane's to mac. i saw you. you were with your cca friends. after you have been a councillor, i guess that some things must have changed, alot.. and during the lvl camp. i walked past you. you looked at me, i wanted to wave to you, instead, you looked at me, and turned away. seriously, it didnt happen once, it happened alot of times. you told me to wait for you every period before recess. but you went off, without noticing the ane's. i tried calling out to you. you din turn back. sometimes i get the feeling that once you have new friends, you throw your old friends down into the dump. you din care about what we felt no more. you're just using us. i'm truly disappointed.

you dont have to read this R.


him! him and him! xD

back from the sec 3 level camp! wheee~


had the kayaking first. but it was low tide, so we did rafting. i thought it was boring in the first place, indeed it was. had to build it by ourselves. a lizard appeared out of nowhere.. -screams- build build build.. an hour passed. our raft was not the best looking among the other 3 groups. but, what matters was in the inside right? carried it to the sea. once it was placed in the sea, the competition started. 2 of the rafts had broken up into pieces. -chuckles- our group and 1 group continued. i went on the second time. we had to go on a relay. which was to go 3 times.. yes~ that lady in a boat keep telling the rest of the 4 people, "follow that girl! follow that girl! she's doing it correctly! follow her follow her!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA!! we won!!! -singing the 3 cheers-


had the team building games after lunch. my shoes were soaking wet with sea water plus loads of sand. den while walter lim was talking to us about some teamwork stuffs, i was calling puifun, "puifun puifun! look at my shoes! can make water leh!" i squeezed my shoes, water came out. den walter lim said, "aiyo! that girl arh. dont make your shoes lah.. very disgusting leh, -laughs-" he was kidding though.. funny t'cher. =)


i hate that tent!! its full of some stinking god damn mud!! eewww!! and! its full of some disgusting sandflies and MOSQUITOES!!! AHHHHH!! sandflies.. what are they? flies that are made out of sand? -.-"


woke up the next morning, my legs were filled with those irratating mosquitoes bites!!! wanted to place the photos here.. but, nahz.. i've changed my mind. its gross. cant really stop those itch. and those sickening sandflies bit me!!! -kills them-


had high element games the next day. we din get to try the first one. some other group came. curse them.. i was sitting there. infront of the second game. then that guy suddenly pointed to me, telling me to go over. went over. OH MY FRICKING GOD! its so damn high up and it was so difficult to climb up!! and a guy from the other side pulled up me up. everything was fun! except we din get to try the flying fox.


next was the low element games. theres an event that i'll like to elaborate on. while we were playing the spiderweb thinggy, i suddenly broke down and started crying. i just couldnt help but stop tears from flowing. cant believe i cried.. sheesh! i'm sensitive though.. the reason is, someone said something about her own body mass. then, i denied it. some other people pointed to me. i was mad though.. but at the same time, i was hurt by her words. then, i broke down. seriously, try being in my shoes for awhile. seriously you wont even like one single bit.

sangeetha cheered me up. she knew how it was like being someone like me. she's like the only one who can really understand how i feel. ^^


well, i felt much better the next day. (:
overall, the camp was really really fun!!
our group, GROUP 9 WON THE BEST GROUP!
SECOND PLACE! *claps*


i went home, on my handphone. GOSH!! I CANT BELIEVE MY EYES!
BLUR BOY SENT ME 2 SMSES!!! -SCREAMING-
okok!! he's like the most charming boy i've ever seen!
i really regret not bring my handphone to the camp. he even knew i was at the camp!! ahaha! oh yah.. the whole sch was camping. =.="


I LOVE YUAN YUAN!
=DD

yes.. i've cut my hair!! -sobs- now it looks very very short. actually.. not very short.. -.-"


during physics, we used the vernier caliper. den got that poking thing at the back of that vernier caliper.. den my sis wanted to poke kerk's butt. AHAHAHA!! kerk's funny though..


i waited from 1630 to 1700+, and shiping cant din show up!! -mad- have to go up to her class..

and and!!
I SAW YUAN YUAN! WEETS!! he's sweeping the floor. i guess he's in detention. oh yah.. he is in detention.. =/ he's so cute!! gosh!
-falls deeply in love-


yep! tmr shiping and i are going to be the "ex-cos" for that training. abit nervous though.. we have so many things to do tmr! cant wait!


BTW! thnks ass! AHAHAHAHA!!
=))


i love yuan yuan.
:D

cca open house was quite fun! although some people declined to even take a look inside. and they dont even want to take my flyers or something. some sec 1s have attitude problems.. tsk tsk tsk..


when i was coming down the stairs.. omg! guess who i saw? weeee~ i saw blur boy! AHAHAHAHAHA!! smiled at him though.. =D


i love my yuan yuan. (:

the 11th floor residents are
DRIVING ME NUTS!

all those construction sounds, knocking sounds.. blah blah blah.. you name it!!

cant take it anymore..

i miss him. i love him.


FRIDAY THE 13TH!!
i had some bad luck though..


wankee almost fainted once she knew that blur boy was in her class. tsk tsk.. slow reaction sia.. LOL. =D


cca open hse tmr. full guides uni!! AHHHH!!! and no pony tails. die die die..


i found you.

HOW I HATE THAT FUCKING BITCH STANDING AT THE SCHOOL'S BOOKSHOP!!


i was ordering the chemistry files, den that pig wants to torture me. keep asking me to count those coins a thousand million times. fucking asshole.. cant help shouting every single words into her deaf ears. get fired as soon as possible, get a real life. (:


and oon yu and raj!!
WATCH OUT. you people dont pay me for any chemistry things the next time, you're gonna die.


puifun, sammi, my sis and me named our chemistry grp..
ALIBABA!
ahahaha. actually it was some other name.. but i was laughing like siao. so, changed it. now, our wonderful work was being pasted on the wall next to puifun and i. *admires*


BLUR BOY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
=)


yes of cause its not worth it. what are you? blind? craps..

tweety bird's lesson was so god damn funny! the 4 of us laughed real hard. i couldnt control myself. sam wrote on jie's bk, saying, "look at tweety bird's eyebrow! one long one short. LOL! " luckily i dint glance nor look through it, i might have died. =/


HE'S SO CUTE!! 100% CUTE! and he's got the gong gong look. ain it adorable?
i love my blur boy! xD


i was thinking, why should i be afraid and keep running away from him? and them? nop! i shouldnt be. either ways, i wont be changing my blog. look at my posts for all you want. i dont fricking care no more..


3 CHEERS FOR MY BLUR BOY! :D


suffering in silence

everything's a mistake..

1 huge mistake.


i regret it..

truly..


look on the bright side,

i'm gonna change my url soon. (:


-pukes- i din even know why i even bothered. you should be greatful that i felt the same way.. yes, all of them agreed. seriously, how fake can you get? what? the next thing you can tell me is.. that you're gonna commit suicide? please.. you started it first. let go

yes! i bought the last fnn textbook..

ty puifun, matin and jasmine! sorry jasmine! for "stealing" your last book..

SORRY!


oh great. now the main computer broke down.. shit.


maybe its my fault, i never should have answered. hate me for all you want, i cant do anything anymore..

i'm under depression.. again.


why do i keep having bad luck? maybe its called, karma. i'm having my own retribution.. yes. i'm a bitch, a fucking liar, a whore. curse me, may i be gone soon. why cant i be like other kids? i look like a normal kid. but, why cant i just be like them? i'm going bonkers soon. the first week of school has just ended. and.. my troubles are starting to surface up again. its like a daily routine.. for a year or so. nobody ever listens to me anymore. talk behind my back for all you want you miserable people, i dont really fricking care. i cant do anything right.. crap. how stupid can i get? she told me what you felt after hearing my tone yesterday. sorry.. please dont let this thing get to you that much. my little piece of heaven suddenly turns dark. and its only the beginning of year 2006. i wanna end this fucking life..


those shoutings, yellings, screamings, constantly repeating itself in my mind. throbbing in my head. i've tried many ways to stop it, but i failed. dark clouds hoved around the white, cheery, puffy clouds. it resembles like my life, which was once like a heaven, but its hell to me now. the night came, thunder filled with angst yelled out. the eye-shattering lightning flashed endlessly. negative thoughs engulfed my mind, controlling me to do things which i detests. fighting that moment, i'm helplessly dangling on a piece of string. sometimes i wished that i could just fall. after ending my life, i might not feel that hurtful and miserable on the inside. who knows? i might be in heaven..

qyqyqyqyqy

imysm.

:)

i fell sick. stupid bacteria flying and floating ard. curse dem..


had to buy tt fnn txtbk. tt stupid auntie at e bkshop.. tt older one. always fight back at me.. ytd, i was rushing for time. and she kept lagging me.. shit her. and! the best thing is. after recess was fnn. yet she dont wanna sell me. *points third finger*


had fnn exam. T.T .. first lesson of practical, and theres an exam. i was one of the first few to start the exam first. we had to fry an egg, sunny side up. and some french fries. easy? not for me. =.="


tt jian hao was infront of me. he seemed like my "mirror". he kept following what i do. wad he was doing? is wad i call, copying! DISGRACE MAN!
i did quite a number of mistakes..


-i cut e potatoes wrongly.
-i peel the potato skin off using the knife. i should have used tt slicing thing.. too bad. i din look in my drawer. and the best thing is.. faizal saw my doing that. i think i've scored low.
-there wasnt enough time for me to finish up everything. i was the second last to serve everything. sad..
-faizal keep staring at me when i cooked. SCARY..
-i kept coughing when i was cooking the egg. the smoke was "poisonous"
-coughed throughout the whole exam.. OMG.


& BEST OF ALL. i have a confession..



I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO CRACK AN EGG!


i'm such a loser.. =.=" my maid dont even let me cook. let alone do all the chores.

IT WAS SO FUN TODAY AT MAC!!

xD

oh innocent one,
feel my mind in yours,
take my wishes to your heart;

i bought an OP BAG!
thankies mummy!


muackss!



school's reopening tmr!


that means..


i'm not gonna go online for AGES!


& i'm gonna blog once a week from now on..


pretty devasting news to me though.


peer leading tmr!
WOOTS!

=)

HAPPY NEW YR PEOPLE!



i'm addicted to point blank & WILD ARMS!! i've been playing it for about a week, non-stop.
FREAKY!


i saw that billabong bag that i've always wanted today!! but that price of the bag? you dont wanna know..


& that nike shoes? ITS OUTTA STOCK ALREADY!!
went home with nothing.


sad, isn't it?



i dont wanna go to school!


i'm gonna miss point blank!
i'm gonna miss wild arms!
i'm gonna miss my maple pet!
i'm gonna miss mapling!
i'm gonna miss the computer!
i'm gonna miss waking up late!


& most importanly..


i'm gonna miss him loads.
(:


i love you sweetie.